Melanoma and times ticking for Mom.
My mom is only 62 I am 35. She and dad were divorced when I was 5 or 6. We have never been physically close distance wise, but we think alike on many things and have the same ways and sense of humor. I love her oh so much and have always thought about her monthly if not more. I've cherished every moment I've gotten to spend with her as a child and as an adult.(it hard to explain being close to someone but never seeing them. I call her at least once a month).
My grandmother had melanoma and died from it when it went internal. My mother had it on her hand, got it removed and now it is all through her internal. She has been given pain medication (Morphine-which is pretty strong) and told come back in one month and we'll see how your doing. She doesn't want to fight it (wish she did). I have two sons. One who is 6 which she has seen twice before, and my one year old (15 months) which she hasn't even seen a picture of him (my fault I haven't even taken any =(.... )
I want to go see her and take the kids, but I don't have the money. Me Fl her Oh. She heard about it from another relative (my sister)and said you don't have the gas money. Which is true, I don't have any money right now. I would need to rent a car, and rent hotel rooms up, there and back. she lives in a trailor.
I wish my sister hadn't told her because I'll feel guilty as hell for not going, I wish I had taken more pictures so she could see my sons more, I'm fearful of what is in store for me since this is a hereditary disease.
Thanks for listening,
Gidge
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