Wrong choices, anyone?

[fatima bento]

I'm bad. I feel awfull. I just wanna die. I'm so, but so tired! Sure, tomorrow's another day, but it will be exactly like this one, that was exactly like the one before... I cant take this anymore. I'm fed up with my life. I just wanna go to sleep, and preferably never wake up again.

Dont ask what made me get here, cos I dunno. I have been fine for more than 6 months, now, but now I had a BIIIIG problem with my bank - THEIR MISTAKE, but they wont assume it - a HUGE trouble in ds's school - people from postcard angels heard of it - that I had to try to solve, and which sucked me to my last drop of blood ( thing is, the 1st grade- 6 yr old kids - is not teaching them anything, and his slapping them. Among other things... ), and, last 24 was dh's payday, and I have now $8 in my purse until next payday - MARCH 24!!!! And the worse part is that its been like this for the past months. And my family DOES have money and DID raised me not to need it. And... man, I feel so bad! I cant get the purpose of all this. I cant understand WHY I should leave my bed in the morning, why I should try to do anything, cos it takes me nowhere. I'm always in this deep hole, with all these fingers pointed at me. I DONT WANT TO SOUND LIKE A OLE POOR ME!!!!!! My family is safe from me commiting suicide cos I would never do that to my kids, but I do feel lousy!

[MrsManiac]

I pm'd you, Fatima. All of us here have had times like you're going through right now. For most of us, this is how "frugality" became part of our lives! Just know that we're all with you and you are in our thoughts. This place is one heck of a support system!! Try doing like I'm doing right now: I get out of bed and literally take the day one minute at a time. I don't think of yesterday and the mistakes I made, and I definetely don't worry about what I'm going to do tomorrow! It's too much for me to think about. Sad, I know. But it will pass--maybe tomorrow, maybe a few months from now. But it will pass!! Maybe think of it as a learning experience: If you can stretch that $8, just IMAGINE what you could do with $800 once you get it!! Makes me smile every time

[MKS]

Fatima - all I can think to say is remember the things you have done well. Doing well for 6 months is pretty good. Sorry, I'm not very profound this morning.