Lila, I am sorry you feel this way.
I have never lost a child so I can not imagine how you feel. I would not know what to say other then I am sorry for your loss.
As for others not responding, they may have never gone through the horrible ordeal you have or they may just not want to talk about it if they did. We all have to respect they way other feel.
Once again, I hope you get the support you need. SOrry I could not help you