To ALL...
You're not nuts, and this is survivable!
Brief history:
Dd, now 25 and eldest of five, was having seizures before she was born, but, as you already know, no one would believe me. I was, as you are or will be, the quintessential mother dragging her kid from doctor to doctor and dismissing them all as quacks. She was finally diagnosed at age 12 with Absence (petit mal, or staring) seizures plus a few other kinds of motor seizures. Her baseline rate was in excess of 20,000 a day. Part of the troule with diagnosis was the extraordinary frequency - she was flashing in and out so fast that nobody could see it. Except for her crazy mom, of course. We were told she would outgrow them, or they would get worse. Well-meaning friends all assured us she's outgrow it. At age 16, she began developing grand mal seizures. Breakthroughs now are hourly/daily for petit mal and several times a month for grand mal. They mutate from time to time in type, frequency, severity, and duration for no detectable reason. Not a candidate for surgery, vegas nerve stimulator implant, or ketogenic diet. She has a few more problems to deal with because she's also autistic and schizophrenic.
BUT, she lives a full life as she sees it, and is a happy, reasonably productive member of society.
I am not heroic, courageous, or in need of sympathy, nor will I bore you with 25 years of war stories. This is all merely to let you know that you're not alone and that you and your child will make it through ok.
Now: a few of my never-to-be-humble recommendations:
FACT #1 - YOU ARE THE !!EXPERT!! And, yes, I'm yellling this at the top of my lungs. Don't ever let any mere "professional" convince you that you don't know what you're talking about. They are nothing more than people with academic credentials and bizarre vocabularies. They don't know your kid. If you ever feel like you're beginning to forget FACT #1, email me and I'll pound it back into your head.
Advice #2 - If you can possibly get to a large children's hosital or university research hospital, do so. Their neuro clinics are generally far superior to anything else. Private general practice neurologists are practically worthless when it comes to pediatric epilepsy - they rarely if ever see it, can't possibly keep current with the literature and research and current therapies. Neurologists at children's research hospitals generally understand what's going on and are fairly current. Neurologists in university research hospitals are still in academia and usually on the cutting edge of current practices and drug therapies. If all else fails, see if your county medical board knows of any local "epileptologists, " neurologists specializing in epileptology, or the study of epilepsy. (And if you ever find a neurologist named Andrew Reeves who went to Mayo Med School, move heaven and earth to get in with him. The most remarkable physician - and human being - I've run into. Just wish I knew where he went when he left Ohio.)
Advice #3 - You're gonna have to do your own research. Sorry, there's no way around it. You know your child better than anybody else and you'll have to learn the vocabulary, symptomology, diagnostic criteria, disability law, education law, all sorts of things. You are your child's best (and, truth be told, only) advocate. Long before he or she starts school, learn all you can about special ed in your state if you feel it may be necessary. Even if not, an individualized educational plan may be necessary for the medical and physical management of seizures if and when they occur at school. If for no other reason than to stop them from calling the paramedics all the time. The public library is a great place for epilepsy research along with the internet and the Epilepsy Foundation. Your husband and family can be major supports, but the main responsibility for you child and your child's advocacy still rests with you.
Advice #4 - Try to avoid calling the squad for a grand mal convulsion. They are rarely trained for convulsions and often handle them wrong, and have been known to do more harm than good. If the kid has stopped breathing, it's because his diaphragm is locked up for the moment, maybe throat too. EMTs attempting to push a tube down a locked airway could create a real disaster. Don't panic - breathing will resume as soon as the muscles relax. Move things out of the way so she doesn't bang into things, time the seizure if you think of it, and wait patiently for it to be over.
Advice #5- find your local chapter of the Epilepsy Foundation.
www.efa.org I think is the main site. They are a wonderful source of assistance, support, knowledge, research, summer camps, groups, family education and support, just anything and everything. Plus, they actually *believe* you!
Advice #6- Many states have county boards of health that have specialized department or bureau for handicapped children that pay or help to pay for medications. Private physicians often don't know about it, but children's hospitals usually do. Don't be afraid of the word "handicapped" - it will open doors for you.
Feel free to email me privately or on this board, yell at me, disagree, complain, ask any question, give advice. There are lots of other boards out there, many of which I've forgotten but would be happy to find for you. I may be able to hunt down resources for you as well, just let me know. At one time, my expertise was as a special ed parent advocate, but I'll try to stay off that soap box.
Hang in there, ladies. How? Baby steps. One breath at a time.
-Chris