| I know so many people have it worse than I do. I like your analogy of tying the end of the rope and hanging on. That is pretty much what I am doing.
Things have been tough for a long, long time. One can only be optimistic and look forward and do all the techniques for only so long. I have even thought about what I would tell a client who was in the same situation. Others have had clients who had terrible luck, like a mother dead, aunt dead, an aunt dead, and a brother who was murdered, or a person who got fired from a job, then their house burned down, and then found out their child is dying of cancer, as examples. Some of these clients were on their 3rd or 4th year of a strand of horrible luck. The only thing you can tell them is that you are sorry and listen and realize they have a great reason to be distraught.
I am just tired. I think depression adds to the tiredness, but I cannot take the medication due to a seizure disorder. I try to get up and outside to get my mind off of things. I play games to keep my mind busy too. I also think I am mostly going through burnout. That takes about 2 years to recover from. I pushed myself to graduate, while battling for child custody, while raising 2 children alone, while obtaining employment and working full time, and then dealing with the parents, on top of the weird happenings (mail lost for 2 months before having to get the congressman to intervene on my behalf to get my mail as the forwarding of mail forms were filled out correctly and they could not get my mail to me, lost my lit review for 2 months, and so much more.) I think my body and mind is just needing a break from all the stuff.
The main thing I do is make sure the children are happy and healthy. I make sure they get to school, I go to parent/teacher conferences, make sure they have clothing, and so on. If I do nothing else in life, I make sure their needs are met.
I did hear from the job I interviewed for almost 3 weeks ago. The supervisor finally got back with me. She stated that she didn't realize it had been 2 weeks already. I don't really know what to think of that since she told me she needed someone rather soon and wanted to wrap that up within 2 weeks. She emailed me this morning and stated that she would be making a decision in the next week or so.
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Ellen in PA 
