Over the years, as I have settled into my comfort zone in my home office and role as an at home mother, I've neglected myself. When I worked outside of the home in an office, I had a beautification routine every day. Each morning I would get up, shower, apply make up, dry and style my hair, get dressed in my office attire (nice clothes) and put on nice shoes.
These days, I tend to shower at night after all the kids are in bed, I no longer dry my hair and most of the time it's in a pony tail to keep it out of my face (why do I bother getting my hair cut anyway if I'm just going to put it up??). It is rare that I wear make up and I don't have any decent clothes that fit me. My wardrobe consists of sweats, spandex, t-shirts and jogging bras. I have a couple of pairs of jeans, and that's pretty much it!
What happened to me? I realize that when I quit my job 5 years ago that I no longer was required to apply make up, wear nylons, and dry my hair, I could adapt a more "comfy" lifestyle. But how did I manage to let myself go like this??
I've known this for a while, but frankly I don't think I really cared. However, tonight, while I sat and watched my son's little league game, I realized that I was the only one there that looked so darned frumpy! None of the other moms had forgotten to change their t-shirt (I had sauce on mine from making dinner), and none of the other moms hair look like a rat's nest (humidity does lovely things to my curls). In fact, several of the moms looked marvelous!
Is this because of my computer related life? Because my job does not require me to see anyone physically, that I can just NOT CARE anymore about me??
This was a real wake up call for me. I think I'm going to try and make some real changes in my life. I don't want to sit in the lawn chair at the baseball game and lean over to hide my fat stomach. I don't want to be afraid to smile because of the tooth I lost last month. And I'm tired of wearing my hair in a pony tail!!!
Starting tomorrow, I am going to try and implement these changes:
1) Walk the parking lot at the school while my daughter plays with my little ones at the playground
2) Come home and shower afterward
3) Apply make up, even if it's just some mascara and a little lipstick, just something to make me feel prettier
4) I'm going to forget about drying my hair, but I will take advantage of those curly locks that God gave me, you know, the ones I HATED the whole time I was growing up LOL. I'm going to get some hair gel, something I haven't bought for myself in almost 5 years, and tame my curls, try to make them look nice
5) Get OUT of this spandex! Yuk. Going to try and start wearing my jeans more, maybe I'll eat less LOL
6) attempt to get more than 5 hrs of sleep per night, that's just not enough!
Think I can do it? I don't know, but I have to try.
A cheering section wouldn't hurt
(hint hint), nor would someone to do this with me!