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It is severe depression in wheres someone sees and hears things that aren't there, they become suicidal and can go through with the process of killing themselves, they have mood shifts...up and down. It's very frightening...and lately dd's meds have been increased and they have made her aggravated, forgetful and having what I call fits...but they are mini-rages, in which she throws things, hits at things, screams, etc.

It's something that is hard to go through, especially when you watch your young child go through this. Dd's father had to be bipolar...he nor his family told me he was bipolar but they sure acted funny when we told them I was pregnant. Even his mother said she couldn't bond with dd until she knew she was normal...of course dd and I haven't seen her dad nor his mom in years...way before dd started showing bipolar symptoms...We weren't married by the way...

Dd's pdoc-(pediatric psyciatrist)-...his nurse accused me over the phone as I stood in dd's principals office over the phone of not setting my priorities straight because I cancelled dd's appt. Friday because I had the CNA class...well, I didn't know this would happen, I'm not THAT psychic, and besides, she isn't putting money in my pocket and this is my only chance to have a steady income, degree or not...how dare she say that??? If I weren't standing there, I would've went off on her. I did tell her I didn't care what she or the other staff members thought, just get a quicker appt. with dd's pdoc...

It's a daily battle to have a mentally disabled child, especially when all the 'experts' blame the parent, as if I don't have enough on my shoulders!!!